Weight loss try #742-Day 5...the "not so bad" phase

It's Tuesday, 5 days into Weight Watchers. Several times in the last few days I felt a strange emptiness inside. I thought it was my loneliness and a realization of a half a lifetime wasted with nothing to show for it. Turns out, it was hunger. I've eaten pretty much the same stuff that I live on as a single guy who lives with a dog. Frozen Marie Calendar dinners, Lunchables, pizza, Milkbones. But now those foods have points attached to them. Which I thought would just make them heavier. Turns out, it just makes them proportional. So instead of having 4 pieces of pizza, I have 2. As long as I have the points left in my day. My first day, I ended up with 13 points left over. But I was full and didn't want to eat any more. Then I heard my mom's voice in my head...."Scotty, finish your points! There are starving children on Weight Watchers in India who would love to have those points!"
I just couldn't do it and went to bed with those damn 13 points just hanging there.
The next few days, I was able to come closer to my limit. We will see on Friday if it's had the promised results. Now, I am a veteran of weight loss programs and know that if I put up big numbers on Friday, it will be mostly due to water weight, which is always the first to go when starting a new program. And since I am retaining the equivalent of Lake Mead, it could be a big loss. On the other hand, if it's only a couple of pounds, I will have to lower my points limit and no one wants that....do they?

Weight loss try #742-Day one...again.

It's Friday, Jan 27, 2012 and 1 month away from my 50th birthday. That's 50 years of being controlled by the one thing that has been a constant since I was 4 years old. My weight. I have had body issues due to being overweight for most of my life. It has affected my personal and professional relationships, has hindered my career and, if I am to be totally honest here, even destroyed my marriage. So, Although I am sure I will be told differently, I believe I have wasted the first 50 years of my life. Yes, that time has been peppered with some good stuff. I made people (especially kids) laugh and maybe forget their troubles for a moment. But all in all, I have done nothing to really validate my existence.
So....is it over? Not by a long shot. I figure, with the advances in medicine and lifestyle choices, I can probably live another 50 years. As long as I make some changes now. It's funny, my Drs. hate me because I am the healthiest super morbidly obese person they have ever seen. My blood pressure is normal. My Cholesterol is 155, which blows them away. So far, I have no diabetes or other diseases that are supposed to come with being obese. I believe part of reason is I never really got into drugs or alcohol. Again, I blame my weight for that. When I was young and fat, I was never invited to the hip parties and allowed to play in their reindeer games, so I never took up any of the bad habits that affect so many in life. Didn't have a lot of luck with the ladies so I had less chance of STD's or kids. It's been a really sheltered 50 years.
So now, I am starting my first day of my nth attempt to lose weight, become more organized and improve my life for the better. I will try to post something every day here so feel free to follow me on this latest journey.
Just to prove I will hold nothing back, When I weighed in last night at my first Weight Watchers meeting, I rang the bell at 485 lbs. Ironically, not my heaviest I have ever been. More on that later.